Winter in Dumfries

About three things I was absolutely positive:

First, I would be spending the majority of my winter in Dumfries, south west Scotland

Second, I have seasonal affective disorder and no job

And third, to deal with this I’ll have to commit to watching the 100 and going to the gym

The sun is setting before 4pm and my closest friends are 2 of my mums 3 dogs. The third one is an enemy.

I love the cold weather when the sky is clear, it is very pretty here especially the peace and quiet.

Being alone a lot of the time means I can prioritise setting up a life that works for me and makes me feel happy with myself. The way this past year has gone, I could frequently recognise my problems in the moment, and truly want to change, then allow work and life to push those problems to the bottom of my list. Ultimately, I got more unhappy and more unstable because of my choice to not prioritise addressing those problems.

The next chapter I’m moving towards right now is one where I set up pillars in my life that allow me to like myself, and be content. These pillars will not solve all of my issues, and I will always be someone who is emotional. But they should allow me to have a strong sense of self and ideally set me up for a life that is calming and brings me inner peace.